Curled Up and Cry

it was in the tip of my tongue
i want to say it
i'm tired
i want to take a break
i don't wanna cry no more


maybe it's an exaggeration
maybe it's just what i'm feeling
but then why am i here?
feeling like i'm losing?
losing you?
losing what used to be so easy to hold


no guessing
no doubt
no waiting


i thought i already passed that
passed the time where i'm sleeping while holding the phone
waiting for the one i hope the most
but here i am.
going back to square one.


do you know what i love the most about us?
about you?
it's how you made me feel so safe, so secure
there's no guessing, no pretending, no analyzing
i don't have to sleep holding the phone anymore
because you're always there


we are apart
i know that
it's not an easy part for the future
but i'm trying
i'm juggling everything, with you in my center
can you do the same?


i've been hurt before
i know all the signs
i recognize the tingling sensation
the urgent feeling to be convinced
the desperate hope to be awakened from the nightmare
and i'm feeling it all over again now


i thought you are my last
but now i don't know.
do you?
if you do, why does my tears won't stop?


i'm so tired
with me there are two ways
whether we all in, or we all out
i don't settle for any less
because i won't let you settle with me for any less too
you deserve the best as i deserve the best


so just tell me. 
is this a nightmare all over again, 
or is this a rough path in which we can overcome together?


but i can't do it alone.
because if you asked me,
right now i rather just curled up and cry.